Blog: If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?

If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?

That's a serious question I am asking myself all of the time. - "Do I REALLY want to do this?"

These past few years, between work (weight loss) School (BA in theatre) Shows (about 11 this year) and all the many many things I do with my life...its hard to find time for things...and if I DO find the time. Last semester I worked full time, took 16 units of classes, and did a LOT of theatre...and I have to say.. I wanted to do ALL of those things. I will say it was my most productive year. I was in a commerical about weight loss. I was in the NY DAILY NEWS for it too. I filmed my first independent movie, and my first big web series, originated my first stage role, did a damn musical again. EACH of my writing projects got some kind of production this year...I am DOING what I want to do.

That is FUN for me.

Yes I absolutely love to go out and party. I love to meet for drinks at bars, see movies, hang out, go on vacation...but those little breaks are not want I want to DO. They are just things to do.

People sometimes ask...how do you pass the time? But...who has time to pass? With all that I want to do with my life, I don't really have time to "chill." That's  just not me. When I leave work, or school, I am usually heading directly into some theatrical adventure or other something to push me forward...and if its not something that is going to challenge or change me...I probably won't do it. I just don't have time.

I'm not the time who can just sleep all day. I am not the type who can party every night. I am not the type who can just...hang out....

I have life ADD. I can't focus on one thing...

Call me driven. Call me cold. But don't call me a time waster.

(steps off soap box)

I feel bad because I haven't blogged enough...honestly I haven't had a lot of time..but I will make up for it because this blog is something I really DO want to do. Fitness wise, mental health wise, life wise...

 As for fitness..so day one of INSANITY was yesterday...and man...my ass is kicked. My entire body hurts. But its worth it..abs will be worth it. Being the best I can be is worth it..

so until tomorrow.